As I start this 49th year cycle towards 50 let me reflect. I've completed 7 full cycles (cycles of 7 years each- a mystical, metaphysical grouping, which I'm into, but more on eso another time) and just what have I done so far? Bueno, let's break it down shall we?
0 - 7 Pre birth to 7
I hear mi mamá had a good pregnancy, nothing extraordinary except for it being her first child, and of course it being me. ; ) At school I was very shy and quiet. Yo se, no need to say it- I know what you're thinking; I definitely grew out of that one. JU SO FONII !!! Don't blame you though- if I wouldn't have seen those teacher's comments I wouldn't have believed it either.
7 - 14 Child, Tween and Teen
Woah- what a span. Is it just me or does it seem like my generation didn't have much variance between the groups? I for one was still playing w/baby dolls at 12. And still had my baby fat at 14.
14 - 21 True Teen and not too true Adult
Now 14 marked a real shift. It was during this year that I decided I was no longer a baby, thus I no longer was going to need my baby fat. No way was I going to be a Quinceañera gorda. So good bye baby fat and hello bulimarexia. The rest of the cycle is the start of dating, social blooming and suffering. Oh the poems I wrote during those years! And let's not forget the nights of chocolates and Diet Pepsi with girlfriends as we pondered the mysteries of life- and boys. Then the college years. Being a good CAP (Cuban American Princess for the uninitiated) I went to a community college while living at home. Truth be told I kinda liked this arrangement and kept withdrawing from classes because breakfast at Denny's with my BFF was infinitely more satisfactory than Algebra....
As in life, the following cycles will be quick.
21- 28 Adulthood and Motherhood- not necessarily in that order
Got a car, got a job, and since I really didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, got a husband. Ok, ok, I feel your sejas raising and eyeballs popping, but I had already tried to go into the armed forces for "direction" pero the jobs they offered weren't appealing so I took the traditional route. Sooo Private Benjamin right? Bueno, by the end of this cycle I had another car, another job and on the way to another husband, but my beautiful babies made everything worth it.
28 - 35 On A Roll- up and down hill
Went back to college and actually graduated. Go me!! Life lessons were also in store as I remarried and had My Little One. The marriage ended, and at the end of this very emotional and challenging cycle I was sustained by my children and strengthened by their love.
35 - 42 All a Blur - trio of teenagers
Who remembers? It must be true, self preservation through memory blockages. I vaguely recall this being the period my children hit puberty. And we all know my view on that subject. ::shudder::
42 - 49 Change of Scenery- coming out of the trance
A trio of teens, a mini breakdown, and a feeling of perpetual claustrophobia, I had to move from CAP mecca Miami. By this time my two eldest had their own families and it was just me and My Little One. Both of us growing up in a little rural town south of the state's capital. Que? You thought I'd go farther than that? Por fa- once a CAP.... besides, with nietos no way I 'd stay too far away.
"In these years we move from old stereotypical roles with a new found confidence in our individuality. We are prepared to please our self, rather than society and gain a real understanding of our uniqueness, accompanied by a sense of urgency to express our true self before it gets too late."
49 - 56 I've Gotta Be Me- what else can I be?
The above quote describes perfectly my past year. I left a "steady" state job ( oxy moron perhaps?) to pursue my inner calling. I am a performer, a storyteller, a believer in beauty in all its' forms. And I'm ready to blab it too! Be it in person, in blog, or over the airwaves, I will follow my music, singing and sharing. Y siempre, te lo voy a decir BAILANDO.
So all in all? I done good! And looking forward to the next round.
Babushka Besos a todos. Cuidensen.
P.S. Plans for this cycle start off with a radio show for BB, so if you are so inclined please donate towards this, humbly speaking, very worthy cause. Corporate contributions and sponsorships are also very welcomed.
Don't you just see it now? ""BB Bailando con Bustelo" Oh SI!!!
P.P.S. If you are truly inclined and "no quieres perder la costumbre", donations for BB are also greatly appreciated. Mil Gracias.